So I rather regret filing a report with the FBI. I have a sneaking suspicion that my report is very related to the internet disruptions and password reset requests that day. So my professionals are getting used to having conversations with state and federal agencies... the local police can breathe a sigh of relief. The same people that want me to shut up know county and state officials pretty damn well. Extremely well. Unfortunately they can't control the medical board or federal officials... but I'm not law enforcement I'm just pissed off. So again, it's really a bad idea to know me unless I contact you. It attracts the wrong kind of attention. Let it alone. Don't worry about DSS. Worry about DEA and FBI instead. I'm trying to keep myself physically intact and mentally functional, help the local hospitals figure out how we got into this mess. Keep people safe. And maybe the federal government doesnt mind so much giving me some disability and some insurance, if it keeps me healthy and keeps some dirty doctors in line... maybe they come to appreciate that actually... but they probably prefer not to get contacted... so, speaking on behalf of the FBI, please don't contact me without permission. It's not a good idea. Thank you. Please don't threaten me. It's not a good idea. There are jails for some things.
Side Effects
Almost every time I talk to a non-professional who knew the medicated me I get the distinct impression that people want me to shut the hell up and medicate. Such desires have side effects. Insisting on seeing someone through a lens of medicated perfection is a distortion of reality. I get it. I kinda liked the old me. But that's how I got here. Medically complex, permanently disabled unless I learn to deal with emotions differently (near as an honest professional will tell me), unable to maintain relationships... unable to maintain jobs... a medicated perfectionism. Oh, you'll be damn strong... miserable, and unstable. You have to deal with the emotions and set boundaries, or you'll drown in pills and anger and there will be no help for you on this earth. So I strongly advise anyone who knew the old me to avoid contact unless I contact you. Oh I'm full of ideas, you made me that way... not all of them are good ones... the local hospitals and I are engaged in some learning... leave it be. Or people as far off as Singapore just might understand the dangers of overprescription and poor boundaries. I like this state. I like it quiet, safe, peaceful. I'm planning to keep it that way... but I need to work with these hospitals, improve my health and hopefully keep them from endangering the population. I especially want to discourage medical professionals yet again from contacting me directly, indirectly, or by soothsayer unless they are on a treatment team... that would be extremely poor judgment.
Lithuania
A warm hello to my new friends from Lithuania. You cropped up in the past 24 hours.
So far...
1. US
2. Netherlands
3. Singapore
4. China
5. Russia
6. United Kingdom
7. Germany
8. France
9. Hong Kong
10. Canada
11. Sweden
12. Japan
13. India
14. Iran
15. Indonesia
16. Ireland
17. Australia
18. Lithuania
19. South Korea
20. Other
I have Italian blood. Studied some Spanish, French, Italian. Not familiar with Dutch or German.
A reminder to the health care professionals of South Carolina: if you aren't being paid to help me, it's best you keep quiet. Some of you are trying to fool with stuff you don't understand. Others want to shut me up. I think it's best we learn from the excesses of Western medicine. Avoid disturbing the community. Allow my mind and body to work this out.
I'm curious who's joining me from the Netherlands and Lithuania of all places. China is not surprising, but Singapore wasn't my first suspicion.