Social Security

I feel the need for further calming, deescalating, deradicalizing, de-intensifying. Maybe try acupuncture again. I hope my friend from public health is paying attention because this really has been a multistate clusterfuck centered around Bipolar Misorder and Clozastill. It's a waste of funds. Atlanta tried to say no but who cares what Atlanta thinks anyways. No, we like our Harvard pills. Then they see you start turning against the bullshit and they try desperately to suck you back in. It's sad. They play all sorts of games. Tell all sorts of lies and use all kinds of manipulation and checking behavior. It really is absurd. Waste of energy. Just let people be themselves. I need to spread this message far and wide before they shut me up. The Force medicators. It makes no sense to land people on disability. But disability does help if you land there. It helps a lot. I tried to be many things. Never good enough. If I can be just ok... That is a blessing. I like making people smile as just me. Not the mirage. Not the idealization or Bipolarization. Just me. Nothing less and nothing more. I've gotta work out this name thing. It's causing trouble. I thought nicknames would be just nicknames. Now it's a whole battle. I can't even get my accounts to work right because companies and the government argue over what my name is. AND THE LEGAL NAME NEVER CHANGED. At the rate I'm going, if I don't legally change my name I'm going to need witness protection. It's just ridiculous. I just don't like dealing with Social Security. You knooooow... I know a Social Security attorney...