SC Hospitals

Dear SC,

    I've been fairly vocal on the hospitals. I'm hoping not to see them again soon. Maybe we got to know each other too well. Boundaries are important. People make mistakes. It's because I care that I write. Truly great people do not need too much attention. They find ways to balance the giving and the taking. There's been some back and forth, I'm sure we both said things we did not mean. I'm certain my team is taking good care of me. I do hate clozaril, but it's not used much. 

    However, I don't want this swept under the rug. I want real change. I do know that MIP has tried. If the hospitals can focus on those boundaries, some positivity and teamwork, and being diligent about abuse and what they teach, then South Carolina will be better for it. 

    Teaching men that they are dangerous is not wise. Teaching them that one medication is the end all and be all for their life is not wise. Teaching men that they can be gentle and sensitive and still be men, that they can do non gender conforming tasks and still be men is wise. Teaching women to be direct and assertive is wise. Diagnosing men and women based on gender seems unwise. I'm not sure why the difference between genders and different dx's. I think it goes far beyond what the Bible teaches. I don't see the point in shipping people out of state for mental health reasons. 

    What I say and do seems to upset some person or another on a regular basis and I can only point to my teachers. Mild Autism, mild ADHD, mild CAPD, and cPTSD/DID can't possibly be that upsetting to so many people. Some people go their entire lives with no mental health dx's. I've been micro analyzed and pushed hard. I'm not so smart or so strong as to be everything. In some ways MIP did a lot to try to stop that, even long ago. If I'm fond of specific people, it's because I know them. I don't collect people. 

    Sometimes people get too comfortable. That's what they call unhealthy relationships or codependence or enmeshment. I see that now. But we got here together. But I do have protective instincts of my own. So, I hope that the community learns tolerance for myself and the people I associate with. I like this place. I'm running out of energy to keep up. 

I hope my job is done. I'm tired of warning this state about clozapine, minipress, Bipolar and toxic masculinity. I hope people are listening. I don't like rocking the boat too much. I'm trying to help. If we can be AWARE or MINDFUL or CLEAR, that would be great.

The latest thing the Psychiatrist's are into is Whateverism. It's "I don't care whats wrong just make it stop ". Oh really? That's very astute. Yet I'm the faking criminal mastermind. Because they screwed up and don't want to admit it.

I'm trying to understand why Hospitals lie to patients and play games. It's Dangerous.