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Tuesday, July 8, 2025
What does it mean to be stubborn?
Stubborn generally has a negative connotation. It means to persist despite evidence suggesting that one should stop. But another way to interpret being stubborn is to be perseverant, determined, or strong willed. It was stubborn to continue therapy against the wishes of the hospital. It was stubborn to not go to the phoenix center. It was stubborn to come out of two comas. I did it anyways. I'm damn stubborn. Because in the end it was the right thing to do for me. And that is why I am stubborn. I insist on doing what is right for me, just as jessica said I needed to do. And I don't regret it. Filing the complaint against CCBH was the right thing to do. I don't regret it. They can curse my name and hate me, but God knows on this I am right. Sometimes I am wrong. I was wrong to contact the nurse, I was wrong to keep taking Spravato. Those things I regret. But I do not regret being right. I never will apologize for doing what is right.
Why did I believe that Phoenix Center wasn't right for me?
- Because the hospital itself wasn't understanding what was going on with me (Spravato, not THC)
- Because my professionals did not agree
- Because I have communication issues that would have made it difficult
- Because I've been to far too many centers
- Because there was a general lack of listening
- The environment had become toxic, with too many rumors and resentments and not enough facts
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