All this attention focused on what my problem is and whether I'm right or wrong about my own life... the thing is, if the medication I choose works and the strategies I use work, then it doesn't actually matter what theory they throw at me... the theory will fall flat if my way works regardless of the theory. 

    All this indoctrination about manic highs and depressive lows, completely ignoring social factors, autism spectrum, and the ADHD to focus so laser like on the bipolar theory of the magic maker, Prichards. So desperate for him to be right and me wrong, damn the system and damn me if it doesn't fit. Bring it all crashing down just to make a point? Just to be right about the past? Just to be perfect again. I don't have the energy to argue about bipolar anymore. I don't have the tolerance for the side effect riddled meds that don't address the real issues. Works out great for them. I don't have the energy for it. So focused on picking the disorder that fits their narrative that they destroy any possibility to a real story with me. Writing me out of my own script with the wrath of God. Too blind to see their own hubris. Any excuse other then the truth.

    I have to move on. I'm leaving the myth of Bipolar in the past. Anyone that wants to know me is gonna have to leave it in the past too. It doesn't need to be replaced with a different problem to fix. Just leave it. Let it go. Back away from the ideological fixation with your prescription pads down!

    Maybe they think I'm stubborn. They simply can't see that the bipolar meds don't work. They can't see that the application of the theory to my life is nonsense. Some people will never admit that I was misdiagnosed. But, the outpatient seems to have agreed to limit my family's influence on my health care. To once again de-bipolarize me. To fix the meds. Maybe I should take what I can get.

    After all, I don't actually want to be a label, regardless of which one. I just want the healthcare I actually need. Here's hoping.