Intrusive Thoughts

    I do get intrusive thoughts. These can vary in nature. When I'm especially triggered, they can get strong. I think sometimes the doctors confused a triggered, dissociative state that includes intrusive thoughts and hallucinations with Bipolar mania that includes paranoia and psychosis. 

    I see people that I've met before. I see them and I talk to them. Sometimes they even say things back. It started when I was little. Most of them are from my families. Biological or medical. I talk to them when they aren't there.

 Spidey gets to have emotions too. Spidey dudent knead di hospitals! Spidey take care of self. Molly help.

 

I wunder if she'll want dat in crickets or flies?

 Spidey just a liddle crayby, nodda lot, just a liddle.

Places to move... sweden? Too cold.... italy? Too familiar... new zealand? Theres a thought.

 

Ok, this batch of explosives goes to the hospital on the eastside.

 

Jess! No!

Volly

All's vell that ends vell, Volly. You don't mind if I lay some droppings over the hospital campus, no?

Clozaluiah!

     The problem with putting doctors at the pinnacle of an idealized medical thinking is that it encourages idolatry and a system of unequal persons and unrealistic expectations and interpretations. If the doctor is God and the nurses are disciples, then the patients are the ignorant damned who will and must obey without question. This perverse mindset promotes the idea that medications are the answer and that everything comes down to a substance or a system of regimented thought and it crushes independent thought and individual initiative, which THC became helpful as a means to unregiment and desystemize my thinking, to help me to break the rigid ideas where I was broken and the doctor was the messiah with drugs as his messengers. 

 

🫂🫂

Jess

 

JESS! THE HOSPITAL SCRUBS ARE NOT COMPLEMENTARY! AND DROP THE BABY SOAP!!

 

Sarah, do you mind? Vlad has to fly us home now.

Vlad, this is Spidey, I've secured the psychiatrist.  What should we do with him?

Elle

Vell, my Elle, may I have this dance???

Volly

Volly, I found the fly in shower! Look at me go!!!

Zee mindless marching two by two huzzah! Huzzah!

 To spin or not to spin, that is the question! Just as Hamlet pondered the meaning of life, Spidey dives into the whimsical world of spinning a web—of words, that is! Spinning a web can be as magical as it sounds, transforming jumbled thoughts into something beautiful.

While spinning can lead to wonderful creations, it's crucial not to overdo it! Spidey strives to keep it genuine and relatable. After all, nobody wants a web so tangled it gets lost in translation. So go ahead, embrace your inner spider (the creative kind!), and start spinning!

Ebbybuddy loves Spidey... ebben when he ain't tidy... when he gets to play cupid, den he starts to look stupid, but ebbybuddy love spidey....

Spidey gets tired ob being a loan...

Ebby now and den MIP tries to reposess me.

DI/LO, the Name Fits!

 

"Excuse me, where can I find your bottles of blood??"