Dear Public

 Dear Public,

Do not take drugs. DRUGS COME FROM PHARMACIES. FOR ANYONE WILLFULLY NOT PAYING ATTENTION, THIS SHIT KILLS YOU. DO NOT TAKE THE DRUGS. THEY WILL NUMB YOU OUT. DO NOT TAKE THE DRUGS, THEY DISTORT YOUR JUDGEMENT. DO NOT TAKE THE DRUGS. YOU END UP FUCKED. For further details, please consult "Personal Thoughts", "Personal Thoughts - medical", or ask to see my mychart, then consult an LPC. 

DO NOT TAKE THE DRUGS.

Thank You.

Bullshit of the Day

Let's see, what's the latest bullshit?

It's circulating widely. The DSM is getting vaguer. People keep talking bullshit, they find new words for it... Something wrapped up and resold every day.

That's why I have to persistently unwrap this stuff. Demystify. So we can all know it for the Bullshit that it is. 

How many drugs can we repackage in different ways? I want people to know how this shit kills you. I want them to see the myChart. I want them to see the problem list. Let's just publish it all. We'll make pamphlets and fliers... RITALIN, GET YOUR RITALIN! Lithium! Seroquel! See how fast it kills you! Liver damage, Nausea, Constipation, BP changes, EKGS, GET YOUR EKGS!

Wanna a resting pulse of 95-100? Take your Clozaril, call me in the morning about the cravings, the immune system, check with a nutritionist 50 times a year. Oh you'll be strong. Completely Numb. Spaced out. Useless. A complete burden on society. One day at a time, a few hundred mg... You'll be locked up forever. Just look at the past 20-25 years. Oh you'll stay breathing. And completely useless. You won't realize until you stop taking the pills how numbed out you were.

Got a cholesterol problem yet? One day at a time, you'll get there.

Carolina Drugs (By Ashes and Dr. Dust)

Carolina Drugs!

((Chorus))

Carolina...knows how to drug me!
Carolina...knows how to drug me!
In the citaaay of GSP (yeah, yeah)
In the citaaay of ol' gReedy
In the citaaay, the city of Maudlin
We keep it druggin! We keep it druggin! Yeah!

Now let me welcome every patient to the mild, mild South!
A state that's untouchable like Jesus himself.
The pills hit ya system and soon ya depressed
Pack a script in your pocket, seek out EMS
We inna Palmetto state wit our gospel and country 
A state where ya never find a waiting room empty
Pharms on a mission for the perfect drug
Selling it up with the CHING and a snarky shrug

I been in the game for 30 years bein loons
Now Memorial switched itself to Maroons
Back in '97 they used to chart me N watch me
Scrubs shinin like I robbed tha supply room
It's all blessed, from the foothills to tha harbor
My minds running around, back and forth, now it's farther
Throw up a script if ya think they fixed me
Ashes puttin it down for the shrinks of Dixie...

Carolina...knows how to drug me!
Carolina...knows how to drug me!
In the citaaay of GSP (yeah, yeah)
In the citaaay of ol' gReedy
In the citaaay, the city of Maudlin
We keep it druggin! We keep it druggin! Yeah!

Drug it drug it shrinky
Drug it drug it Nursy
Drug it drug it MD
Drug it freakin pharmacy!
Drug it drug it shrinky
Drug it drug it drug it drug it...

Out on script! fresh from commit, now the shrinks a schemin'!
As I step out of McClean, I'm hearin coaches screamin!
Hating for bad talk N bullshit, 

the life of the Asylum player where souls die, and the strong drug it
Only in the hospital where we DRUG, not talk, to live and die
In Asylums we writin scripts, no sense (yeah, that's right)
Breaking boundaries, insulting others is what we do
Scriptin but have caution, we collide with other crews
Famous because we program statewide 

Let 'em recognize from Patrick B to Springbrook
Druggin and lyin like a slow jam, it's Upstate
So go see tha shrink and let 'em hate
Say what you say, but give me that pill down from Harvard
Let me serenade the halls of the Centers
From CCBH to Springbrook,

I'll look for the soul that my shrink took
DMH is where they put they rules down!

Give it up!

((Chorus))

(Ashes) now make it shake...

((Bridge))

Outro: Ashes, Dust

uh, yeah, uh, Gateway in tha house, uh yeah
Phoenix Center, Phoenix Center where you at?
DSS, DSS
(Dust) hey, you know MIP up in this
CCBH, where you at
yeah, Springbrook, Springbrook always up to its good
(Dust) even  tryin to get a piece baby
City Center, IOP where ya at? uh yeah
Throw it up y'all, throw it up, Throw it up
Let's show these fools how we do this on the inside
Cause you and I know it's tha Insane side
yeah, That's riight
East coast, east coast
uh, Carolina Drugs
Carolina Drugs

Morning Joe

Nothing like a good cup of coffee in the morning. I've been making instant. I can't find the espresso grinder. 

I met a guy named Joe. Sharp fellow. He keeps it simple. Joe's not into bullshit. He doesn't care about names. He doesn't use fancy words. But he understands them. Yep, we could use a few more Joe's.  I knew a George. He kept it simple. Oh but he loves those analogies. I seem to remember a Keisha... there was definitely a Beth... yep... a few voices here and there... 

What do these voices say?

You have a good goal...

Strong Boundaries...

Bipolar is one of the most over diagnosed things in the book...

Don't go back to the table...

Enmeshed...

Think for yourself...

Natural solutions...

Clozaril doesn't help you...

I don't want to talk to your family...

Medical leave...

Lean on your counselor...

Stay out of hospitals...

PTSD...

You're not dangerous...

Dissociation...

Journal...

Process...

Medical complex trauma...

Stay away from meds...

Don't go back to the same people...

Don't go back to same places...

Stay home...

Advocate...