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Regrets
Do I have regrets? Why yes I do. Let's prioritize some of the... less personal... there's overlap... here's a start.
Not getting married in my thirties
Suicide attempts
Bad boundaries with family
bad boundaries at work
overly regimented lifestyle
not putting myself first
relying too much
taking Minipress
prescription drugs in general
bad psychiatry
Building egos
time spent in hospitals
too much tv
too much education
too much advice
contacting people without permission
worrying too much, not having fun
too much alone time
trying too hard
not enjoying simple things
talking to the wrong people
not developing hobbies as well
traveling too much
sleeping too much
Helper
The thing I've noticed about the helper is that it seems to be created and reinforced by experience, much like the rest. The helper can get out of control. Manifest as a workaholic, a busybody...
Then with stress, it gets wierd. I transfer stress from part to part, moment in time to moment in time, supress or relieve with music, passphrases, numbers, memories, people, sensations...
It gets outta hand, then it comes out in different physical symptoms, behaviors, communications, or it can mimic different mental health issues... there's so many to choose from... AS, Bipolar, unipolar, psychosis, adhd... everything. A different shrink, a different dx.
That accounts for my troubled relationships with family members... social workers, docs, people with letters. I'm happy to let the next generation shine. I'm tired.
The thing with dissociation is that it can easily resemble psychosis. And shrinks love psychosis. It's like crack to them. The excessive activity and abrupt changes in behavior can match bipolar and its vague standards most of the time. You add in weather changes and diet changes, interpersonal influences, you get seasonal affective disorder. The DSM is excruciatingly vague. Throw a dx at a wall, it'll stick. Lapses in attention? Maybe you lost sleep, had something bad to eat, the wrong substance, were stressed, were physically sick, had a hormonal balance, even a mild seizure from a bright flashing light... bingo, you got your adhd. Don't take the drugs. Not worth it. You'll have trouble eating. Trouble maintaining weight. Energy problems. Probably headaches. If you do take the drugs, try to keep it low. I've seen what the drugs can do. It it quite frightening. Academics only takes you so far. And eventually, you do have to quit. Hopefully before you're forcibly retired or sued.
Illegal drugs are bad. Legal ones are simply tweaked illegal ones.
Methamphetamines ADHD =Speed
Benzos/gabapentin = alcohol
Ketamine/spravato/Propofol = party drugs
Antipsychotics... dangerous beyond imagining... distort your perception... change your behavior... enable all sorts of things. But do NOT go on and off. That's very dangerous.
Minipress/propranolol... change your alertness... very dangerous. Alpha blockers, extremely dangerous. 911 dangerous.
Theres responsibility here. ATF. Professionals. Distributors. Consumers.
Thing is, even people without a helper can lose sight of healthy limits. Too much work, trying to help too many, helping the wrong people, or misguided help.
Note to Reeders
Spidey a liddle tired. Feeling calmer doh. Ebbyday a gnew day! Wemember be careful about di adult parts. Spidey not so bad. Di cat will be out to play.
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Sigo viva
Casi muero. Tres veces. Tengo 43 años y vivo en Mauldin, Carolina del Sur. Estoy bajo la amenaza constante de desalojo. Soy discapacitado. Me esforcé demasiado. Estoy cansado. Estudié y trabajé en tres campos diferentes: contabilidad/impuestos, tecnologÃa de la información y psicologÃa. Estoy empezando a odiar a mi familia. Tengo una enfermedad compleja. Mi historial médico es interminable. Necesito bajar el ritmo.
Hijo, dijo, ¿tengo una pequeña historia para ti?
Lo que creÃas que era tu papá no era más que un...
Mientras estabas solo en casa a los trece años,
tu verdadero papá se estaba muriendo, siento que no lo hayas visto,
pero me alegra que hayamos hablado...
Oh, yo, oh, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, yo, oh, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, oh, sigo viva.
Oye... oh...
Oh, camina lentamente, cruza la habitación de un joven.
Dijo que estoy lista... para ti.
No recuerdo nada hasta el dÃa de hoy.
Excepto la mirada, la mirada...
Oh, ya sabes dónde, ahora no puedo ver, solo miro fijamente...
Yo, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, pero, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, chico, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, yo, sigo viva, sÃ.
Ooh, sÃ... sÃ, sÃ. SÃ... oh... oh...
¿Pasa algo?, dijo ella.
Pues claro que sÃ.
Sigues viva, dijo ella.
Ah, ¿y merezco estarlo?
¿Es esa la pregunta?
Y si es asÃ... si es asÃ... ¿quién responde... quién responde...?
Yo, oh, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, oh, sigo viva.
Oye, yo, pero, sigo viva.
SÃ, yo, ooh, sigo viva.
SÃ, sÃ, sÃ, sÃ, sÃ, sÃ.
Sponsors
DID would like to thank the following Sponsors:
SC DHEC
SocSecAdmin
DeptSS
THE MEDICAL BOARD OF SC
SC GOV OFFICE
AUSTEN RIGGS CENTER
MCLEAN HOSPITAL
MIP Hospital
SPRINGBROOK Hospital
CCBH Hospital
MEMORIAL Hospital
BETH ISRAEL DEACONESS Hospital
CRISISLINE
SAFEHARBOR
JV
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CLOZAPINE
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GABAPENTIN
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Electro Convulsive Therapy
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Please do not try this at home.
It will kill you eventually.
All in the family.
This is what happened. And now they know. Everyone knows.
DID... everything to everyone... the tax clients, the family, the hospitals, the crisisline, the safeharbor, multiple schools, multiple fields, IT, psych, it was hell.
I can't be DID... I can't be everything to everyone. I quit. I resign my last name.
familia
El DID no existe...
Yo no existo...
No te importa este sitio web...
Quieres quedarte en casa y ocuparte de tus asuntos...
No quieres llamar...
No quieres enviar mensajes...
No quieres que nadie más lo haga para informar...
No quieres visitar...
Quieres ocuparte de tus asuntos...
famille
DID n'existe pas...
Je n'existe pas...
Vous n'êtes pas intéressé par ce site...
Vous voulez rester à la maison et vous occuper de vos affaires...
Tu ne veux pas appeler...
Vous ne voulez pas envoyer de messages...
Vous ne voulez pas que quelqu'un d'autre le fasse à votre place...
Tu ne veux pas visiter...
Vous voulez vous occuper de vos affaires...
Past Reflections
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The full strength of the storm had set itself against me and I had prevailed. In all honesty, it was not even a proper mountain, merely a gl...
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The voice on the phone was familiar to him and still talking, but he had stopped listening several minutes ago. She obviously didn't...
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For Ashes, life was always about the spark. The hard part was avoiding a wild fire. With the spark, everything was meaningless. But after a ...
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I can honestly say I never understood the world. I was naïve. The people around me told me I had to change, to be like them. I wanted to, bu...
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I have lost my way before, it's true. I have retreated into the distance, pulling back from the world in pursuit of shelter from the sto...