Games

     I can't play games with this. I have DID. Not Bipolar. It's as serious as cancer. Hopefully not as deadly. I need to be very careful not to push too hard, be dishonest, or misuse prescription medication. I need to remember there are no magical solutions. This is a long term thing. 

    I get pains in my liver area and on the left side of my chest. I don't report every single symptom I have because there's not much the internist can do with so many symptoms that make so little sense. And I'm afraid of doctors. I failed to show up for the internist and for the stomach doctor. Because I know the medical staff is uneasy around me. And perhaps they have reason to. 

    I need to be honest. Or this could end badly. And I don't want it to all be about me. There are other people that need help. And the kids need a turn. But I reopened accountec and I'm going to try to go out more. I need to use my earplugs, so that I don't hear too much. Mostly the sensations are in my head. But my stomach, heart, and liver are the next biggest areas, then the bladder. Feet have improved a lot. the right foot still is slightly less functional then the left. I just need to not get overconfident. I can't afford to wear people out. 

    Today we're playing pickleball. It will be a nice day. I like people. I need to go easy on them.