Positives and Negatives

 Positives

• The hospital is trying
• My physical health is still decent
• I have a good cat
• I have a good home and food
• I have some good friends
• I can write pretty well
• I have a diverse team with lots of knowledge
• I have skills
• A lot of lives were saved at that hospital and my family had a lot to do with that
• I have extensive education
• The medication is helping, even if it's not comprehensive
• I care about people, even if I can't show it
• I try to do the right thing.
• I have a good credit score

Negatives

• The hospital doesn't understand DID and occasionally tries to bury it
• The past was difficult
• I still have plenty of flashbacks, dissociation, depression, I still think about death
• I looked up a nurse and texted her
• The hospital had a fit over Hemp products as if that erases everything Prichards did or the hospital did. We engaged in legal threats. But we're working on that.
• People have wronged me and refuse to recognize that fact or apologize and sometimes still try to hurt me.
• I can no longer expect family, the hospital, or the centers to understand an illness that is hard to treat
• I have a very serious illness that few people understand or want to understand
• There are a lot of bitter and angry people regarding the progression of my illness
• No family (partner, kids)
• Prichards and Malacheck were unethical, and I have trouble getting past that
• I have difficulty with recall and staying present (The dissociation)
• I had trouble adjusting to getting off Clozaril
• people push me too hard and fast and violate boundaries pretty regularly
• I have anger issues

Backups

    We have the evidence to go to trial if we need to.