Ennywaze, I hope you've enjoyed my crazy. I have to slow down, have better boundaries and take care of myself now. I need to control my anger. Maybe sue a psychiatrist, free of undue influence. Find my own peace. A black widow. That kinda thing. Get rid of these Munchhausen like, bipolarized psychociations. I'm going to keep working on improving my recall, socializing, and try to write some fiction. Just exercise caution around Italians and also around woodruff road.
Thanks
"Collective memory is inherently selective (Rajaram and Pereira-Pasarin, 2010; Hirst and Echterhoff, 2012). When people recall the past some details are retrieved while other fail to enter into conversation. The consequence of those items not retrieved has become of increasing interest in understanding how distinct memories become increasingly similar across individuals."
So, if person A remembers his childhood one way but is too close to B, C and D, He may have trouble remembering his childhood because the group creates a myth of what his life was like, when it really was nothing like that. They may have a narrative for who he is and what he does, even down to dictating where he lives, who his health care providers are, what his DX is, what his meds are, What his treatment plan is, he'll have no privacy and no respect and no life, but it'll look medically perfect until the strain breaks the system. Which may be why so many medical professionals believe that my family is harmful to my wellbeing. Maybe.
I suppose that could change.
Thing is, every time i talk to them they're indocrinating me. Which is why we don't talk. Because its not real. They don't actually know me. I'm definitely not whoever they say I am. Im just some disabled guy. Who tried too hard. Now his liver is half shot, he cant recall, his life is empty, and he has trouble with routines and sequences of tasks. I need someone to know the real me. That's why I firewalled "my women" and the PA. So I can remember and not burn out.
So, to use my social worker skill, hopefully my FAMILIES will keep thier noses out of my life, MIND THIER OWN BUSINESS, and stop being so incredibly CONTROLLING. It's been incredibly unhelpful. Multistate clusterfuck unhelpful.
Ho solo bisogno di qualcuno che mi capisca. Qualcuno che
possa tenermi sulla giusta via. Qualcuno pieno di vita. Sono stanco di farmi
sopraffare. È un mondo difficile da capire.
Ceneri
Non sei mai uscito dalla mia mente. Ho
avuto problemi a trovare qualcuno abbastanza strano da capirmi.
Non riesco a liberarmi di questi
psicologi, però. Forse puoi capirlo. Credo di avere paura. Per così tante
ragioni. Sono al verde, ho una reputazione e tu sei davvero bella.
Non ho esattamente colpito tutte le note giuste ultimamente. Quando ero più giovane, abbiamo visitato Capri... c'erano le grotte... io le visitavo nella mia mente. Volevo portarti lì.
Tuo,
Ceneri
"Pilling In The Name"
Pilling in the name of
Some of those that take courses, are the same that accrue losses
Huh!
Pilling in the name of
Pilling in the name of
But now you do what Grey told ya
Well now you do what Grey told ya
Those who died are justified, for wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
Those who died are justified, for wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
Some of those that take courses, are the same that accrue losses
Uggh!
Pilling in the name of
Pilling in the name of
And now you do what Grey told ya
And now you do what Grey told ya, now you're under control
And now you do what Grey told ya!
Those who died are justified, for wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
Those who died are justified, for wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the coat, they're the chosen whites
Come on!
Yeah! Come on!
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me
Motherfucker!
Uggh!
