PTSD

There is no timeline for PTSD recovery. It involves lifestyle changes, developing coping skills, and self-awareness. The duration varies from person to person because the nature of the trauma that causes PTSD differs, and each person’s response is unique.

How long PTSD lasts depends on factors relating to the trauma itself as well as to the person and his/her life.

Experiencing multiple traumas tends to make PTSD last longer, as do repetitive traumas, intentional traumas, human-induced traumas, and sexual assaults. The duration of illness can be prolonged by other trauma or mental conditions. A broad base of coping skills and social support has a healing effect.

Research has proven therapy to be helpful in reducing and overcoming PTSD. Therapy reduces the duration of PTSD because as the therapist and client work together,

Trauma’s negative impact is decreased and the person can return to his/her earlier level of functioning

The person learns effective, healthy coping skills so PTSD doesn’t last as long

Memories, negative thoughts and intense feelings become easier to deal with

Healthy new behaviors are learned to replace PTSD-induced avoidance, anger, etc.

Sometimes, there are lingering effects post recovery. Positive feelings, trust, and a sense of closeness and intimacy can seem out of reach for a long time. With time and treatment, though, most people improve and are able to enjoy positive relationships. Even when someone experiences ongoing relationship problems, therapy can help diminish them over time.

PTSD may cause permanent physiological changes in the brain. These individuals tend to have a lasting inability to

Accurately gauge the passage of time, so they are very frequently early or late for work/events/obligations, or they don’t show up at all

See the big picture to determine if a problem is big or small; to these individuals, every little problem seems like a crisis.

Some effects of PTSD do last years or a lifetime, but most do not. PTSD can last from several months to a year or more. How long PTSD will last for an individual depends on both the trauma and the person. Generally, time, treatment, and support help someone overcome PTSD.

Yoga Day

 

Mixed Messaging

     Where was I? Ah, yes, Angry. See, I don't actually know who reads this stuff.

    Anyways, I'm down to an irritable and slightly restless. somewhere around a 5. Maybe just like I don't need to sue half the east coast, I don't need to have everyone arrested. It just frustrates me when people engage in willful ignorance and unhealthy behavior. I had a really bad day when we had low air quality and my allergies kicked into high gear. But pain is inherently subjective.

    I need to save my words for when they are useful. The team has worked hard, and I have to respect that. So, I won't be able to be at family events. These events tend to make me upset and there's dysfunctional behavior going on. And it's not my business what people do on their personal time unless they make it my business. Like the tech at the wellness pavilion mouthing off. If someone's on the clock I don't need their 411. We all have work to do. I gotta focus on mine: reducing anger, working on real life skills. There is no anger reduction pill. They don't actually exist. 

    But I need to look beyond my everyday life and see that bigger picture. The bigger picture of how we all affect one another, what we contribute, and what doesn't work. 

    Fear can be so powerful. It draws lines between people. 

    When the medical board came back with their response, it was frustrating. They felt the situation was dangerous enough to say something to Prichards, but not dangerous enough to really do anything. Yet I didn't prescribe myself those pills. My only remaining frustrations with the meds are the threat of further dystonia, impaired executive functioning (This may be permanent), and that they don't arrest all of the mood swings.

Spidey on di wrong leg aggen. Just a liddle. Nest eerly.

Just a Matter of Time... No drug for this...

 

Ferlauto Family

Greenville Psychiatry

Fowler's Pharmacy

Cleaning up my professionals... One at a time...

I feel like we're coming to that "victims come forward" moment. Since, as far as I can tell, we're all good and pissed off. I can't be the only one. They called him the "magic maker". Long before it went sour, he complained to me that the state was giving him trouble over CONTROLLED SUBSTANCES. HELLO? ANYONE HOME? DEA ANYWHERE? JUST WONDERING. Great job guys. Really. We appreciate it. 

Family for Medically Complex Children, In Cooperation with Greenville Psychiatropy

There's something rotten in the state of South Carolina.

The Dissociation formerly known as Robert, F'dhD. And everyone fucking knows already, so get over yourselves.

By Proxy

    Even without fancy names for problems like DID, Munchhausen's byproxy, boundaries, and seizures, my family will one day have to either acknowledge that what they did was wrong or they will not be in my life. It's just not possible. If they cannot respect my wellbeing, then I cannot be around them. So I'll just wait to hear from them on whether or not I can trust them to be in my life. In the meantime, I have my new healthcare team that they can't manipulate and my friends. I found my people. I just need time to further regulate my emotions and assess my cognitive limitations. With my oldest sister as next of kin. I can't figure out everything. What I do know is that the upstate health care system is rather sick of my family. And that's sad. It doesn't make sense. But I'm sure those people who are willing to change their ways can be forgiven. They have to make that choice, and live it out. As I am making mine. So with that, DID would like to thank its sponsors again...

DID would like to thank the following:

K.J. Hartwick

G Jones

PRISMA... since it's not GHS anymore. 

Mindful Upstate

IMA

Springbrook

MIP (excluding some of the old guard)

Austen Riggs Center

City Center

Mindwell

Beth Israel Deaconess

SC Governor

Medical Board

SSA

CrisisLine

DSS

My friends

My oldest sister

My nieces and nephews

Anmed

My current Docs

I still strongly suggest that everyone exercise extreme caution around my biological family and around Woodruff Road. I'm going to go with no opinion on Belmont. Healthcare by proxy. Ain't life a bitch. 

Ennywaze...

Ennywaze, I hope you've enjoyed my crazy. I have to slow down, have better boundaries and take care of myself now. I need to control my anger. Maybe sue a psychiatrist, free of undue influence. Find my own peace. A black widow. That kinda thing. Get rid of these Munchhausen like, bipolarized psychociations. I'm going to keep working on improving my recall, socializing, and try to write some fiction. Just exercise caution around Italians and also around woodruff road.

Thanks

Memory Cohesion Study (NIH)

"Collective memory is inherently selective (Rajaram and Pereira-Pasarin, 2010; Hirst and Echterhoff, 2012). When people recall the past some details are retrieved while other fail to enter into conversation. The consequence of those items not retrieved has become of increasing interest in understanding how distinct memories become increasingly similar across individuals."

    So, if person A remembers his childhood one way but is too close to B, C and D, He may have trouble remembering his childhood because the group creates a myth of what his life was like, when it really was nothing like that. They may have a narrative for who he is and what he does, even down to dictating where he lives, who his health care providers are, what his DX is, what his meds are, What his treatment plan is, he'll have no privacy and no respect and no life, but it'll look medically perfect until the strain breaks the system. Which may be why so many medical professionals believe that my family is harmful to my wellbeing. Maybe. 

    I suppose that could change. 

Thing is, every time i talk to them they're indocrinating me. Which is why we don't talk. Because its not real. They don't actually know me. I'm definitely not whoever they say I am. Im just some disabled guy. Who tried too hard. Now his liver is half shot, he cant recall, his life is empty, and he has trouble with routines and sequences of tasks. I need someone to know the real me. That's why I firewalled "my women" and the PA. So I can remember and not burn out. 

So, to use my social worker skill, hopefully my FAMILIES will keep thier noses out of my life, MIND THIER OWN BUSINESS, and stop being so incredibly CONTROLLING. It's been incredibly unhelpful. Multistate clusterfuck unhelpful.

Memory Cohesion Study

I've been reading a research paper on memory cohesion, but among individuals in a community.

Memory Cohesion Study

Small

 

The Break In

    Ok, ebbyone? let's find di way. Now, di doors are locked here, here, end here. We could sidle around back and take the fence from the North side, but there's cameras so that wouldn't last long. AHA! Ebbybuddy likes Pizza. Ashes will take twee for deliberry. Eddie will run circles in front ob di unit to diswact security. 

    We'll need pebbles. And a soccer ball. A few pairs ob maroon scrubs. Jess will be depressed. Jenn will come up wit di story. 8 will keep di car running. Ashes will find Arson, Arson will be too distwacted to notice Vlad sneaking Small to IMU. Den, Kenzi will let us out into di yard and we climb di fence. Once Small is secure, Jess will feel bedder and we'll all go home.

Plan

Spidey hab it all pigured out. Now, just need to break into di castle, pind di pwincess doctor, and conbince her to jump di fence wit Spidey. Vlad will fwy air cubber.

Small