Darkness Until Dawn

Saturday, July 5, 2025

Can't sleep

Dear Joe,

I feel like I am walking a fine line. I'm not even sure whom they were implying I was committing insurance fraud with. Or how. With my counselor, because I wasn't telling them what we were working on? With them, because I didn't feel phoenix center was right for me??? IDK.

I need to get better at this communication thing. If Clozaril could fix this, I would be on it in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. I need to stay out of hospitals. They're wigging me out. I'm like a lemming with hospitals. I just went to the ER to address the racing heart, clammy skin, faintness and weakness after Spravato, and boy what a nightmare. I don't need any more medical emergencies, that is for sure. It is a great mystery of miscommunications. I should have shut down the bullshit. I didn't. I was feeling a little too threatened to speak. I know someday I will be in a hospital again. What then? A lawsuit? Countersuits? Threats and toxic Bullshit? I have trouble understand the mind games.

Ashes

I still feel the need to post in case I end up in a hospital again.

1. No, thc is not the reason I am here.

2. No I am not here for drugs

3. No, I am not here to learn names

4. No, I do not date my medical professionals

5. Take the legal threats and shove them up your ass.

6. I don't give a damn what dx you put on the chart, so long as you treat the symptoms

7. Don't call my family. Don't lie to me. Dont play games.

Spidey nest eerly... 😴

What was it like to file the complaint against ccbh

Miserable. Would it do it again? Of course, sc has a right to know whats going on in its hospitals. From what I understand, patient care has improved.But i need to stay out of hospitals.

Why did i file the complaint about ccbh?

Ive gotten a lot of heat for filing that complaint against ccbh. Why did I file?

1. They spit in my food and watched me eat it on camera

2. They told me to kill myself

3. They repeatedly went into my phone, looking at my personal info including hippa protected information and legal documents without permission.

4. When the insurance refused to pay, they threatened my sister.

5. They force medicated without a justifiable reason

6. They referred to me as "it"

I'm not supposed to talk about it, but then the drug addict bullshit and the harassment outside of the hospital via phone. An ex employee called me.i think it was the guy that used to repair airplanes. One of the one to ones. They didn't have the first clue what they were doing.