Delusional

So I think im going to be DELUSIONAL now. I'M going to lie about MY AUNT'S money being stolen by her executor. so someone might FILE A REPORT with MAULDIN police about state and federal laws being violated. Yep. I think I'm going to lie now. I'm going to listen to my conscience and lie. So thats what I'm doing. Lying about my aunts money being stolen. That's what she would want me to do. Lie about her money being stolen. Because she can act on my lies and delusions. She can do that. See sometimes thats what I have to do. Is lie and be delusional about people I may or may not know. It helps me sleep. And people know im lying. Cuz I said so. So thats what im doing. 

Confidence

I'm confident my childhood friend would want to calm waters. She would see what Springbrook was saying about too many pills. She would understand our anger about overmedicalization around woodruff road, the ER, and mip... about lying to patients, DSM mania and manipulating thier healthcare. The forced medication and harassment around CCBH. She would understand. She would help. I know she's the kind of person would make it stop. She would be like Leaves and Elle. She would not allow it. She and her friends would stop them. Permanently. Regardless of my delusions and lies. She would not allow it. I trust that. So I'm going to rest. Let the FBI watch me. Let my friend calm waters. They're all part of my wall that holds back trauma waters. These people.

Stay tuned

Apparently, unless and until these hospitals and Psychiatrists agree, I'm delusional and cruel and a liar. So you can treat this all as fiction. Though I don't understand why I can't quit if I'm simply delusional. But we're going with delusional. And they say I'm the wierd one. I'm the wierd one? You people won't leave me alone, but I'm the wierd one. I get to be so damn interesting. Public Health stay tuned. Local menace signing off. Nevermind conscience, we get delusional. Nevermind the people around me, we get delusional. No, its every treatment center from here to timbuktu and we get delusional. If nothing else, you'll understand the dangers of lots of different pills. That wasn't even a complete list. Crazy's overrated.

Sincerity

 I also think being honest is important. So I am sincerely hoping that the FBI is shutting down what I believe to be a racketeering operation in Greenville County.

Kindness

I hope I am being kind by telling the truth about members of the community in my families. Because I see multiple state and federal laws being violated. I hope the FBI and Public Health are working with Springbrook and Vinewell to keep South Carolina safe for everyone. By Vinewell I meant Mindful Upstate but Vinewell can help. To me, one of the kindest things I can do is shut down a racketeering operation in Greenville County.

The Mindless

They won't stop wandering into traffic. No matter how hard I try, they keep wandering around. 

Pickle

You know I can't do this without you guys and there's work to do.

Flappy

When the world quiets down, I feel much more peaceful. I haven't heard from MIP or any doctors in a while. Calms the nerves. I even laughed a little. Tomorrow I'm going for coffee. Maybe then we can establish whether I'm of sound mind. I can bring the Ritalin. We can talk about whether it really helps. But I like my current meds. I think my quiz scores were lower. Sleeping is getting better. I feel like I'm eating well. I don't know who I'll have to talk to or what will happen. I don't know how this works. First time for everything. Hopefully the FBI is going through evidence. Identifying which professionals need some clean up. Who may need some secondary cleanup. They say there are victims. Of the medicalized perfectionism. So, they asked me to help. I figure, can't be a forensic accountant, might as well do some clean up. Hopefully, it'll be tidy. We gotta think of the young people. Give them a chance to shine. 

Sunny came home with a list of names
She didn't believe in transcendence
It's time for a few small repairs, she said
Sunny came home with a vengeance.

If I understand criminal law correctly, some people might be going away for a while. I'm counting on some of the Psychiatrists at Springbrook. I think they're pretty pissed off. Pissed off enough to 'switch'. Because now, I can't 'protect' anyone anymore. Do I have to spell it out for you guys? Cleanup time. You know what to do. Maybe after it's over everyone will be flappy. We can Psychiociate less. Enjoy the city. Scripting got out of hand. Too much Bipolarization. They taught me everything they knew. Now it's turned against them. Elle and I used to sit outside, back before they banned smoking. She would have one. I'd tell jokes. Kick around the soccer ball. The food was edible then. It was actually really good. I liked the cornbread.