Life can be really mind bending in both its repetitiveness and the change that can come so unexpectedly. Today, I'm focusing on maintaining some routine. I've got some writing to work on and some errands to run while I wait to hopefully hear back on that job. Hopes and prayers on that one. A warm shout out to all the 9-5ers. I hope everyone is having a fantastic week. I'll try to get out another poem today and work on some prose.
Tuesday, July 8, 2025
Terrific Tuesday Everyone
As we all know, Congress passed the new legislation. There's plenty of places to read about that, so I won't spend time on it.
What does it mean to be stubborn?
Stubborn generally has a negative connotation. It means to persist despite evidence suggesting that one should stop. But another way to interpret being stubborn is to be perseverant, determined, or strong willed. It was stubborn to continue therapy against the wishes of the hospital. It was stubborn to not go to the phoenix center. It was stubborn to come out of two comas. I did it anyways. I'm damn stubborn. Because in the end it was the right thing to do for me. And that is why I am stubborn. I insist on doing what is right for me, just as jessica said I needed to do. And I don't regret it. Filing the complaint against CCBH was the right thing to do. I don't regret it. They can curse my name and hate me, but God knows on this I am right. Sometimes I am wrong. I was wrong to contact the nurse, I was wrong to keep taking Spravato. Those things I regret. But I do not regret being right. I never will apologize for doing what is right.
Why did I believe that Phoenix Center wasn't right for me?
- Because the hospital itself wasn't understanding what was going on with me (Spravato, not THC)
- Because my professionals did not agree
- Because I have communication issues that would have made it difficult
- Because I've been to far too many centers
- Because there was a general lack of listening
- The environment had become toxic, with too many rumors and resentments and not enough facts
Monday, July 7, 2025
Autism Spectrum Level 1
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/History_of_Asperger_syndrome#:~:text=Asperger%20syndrome%20(AS)%20was%20formerly,diagnosis%20under%20autism%20spectrum%20disorder.
Ableism
Ableism is discrimination and prejudice against individuals with disabilities, based on the belief that typical abilities are superior. It manifests in various forms, including personal biases, systemic barriers, and harmful language. Ableism is rooted in the idea that people with disabilities are inherently less capable or valuable than non-disabled people.
Here's a more detailed breakdown:
What is Ableism?
Discrimination and Prejudice:
Ableism is the belief that non-disabled people are superior to those with disabilities. It leads to prejudice and discriminatory practices against individuals with disabilities.
Systemic and Personal:
Ableism can be systemic, embedded in laws, policies, and societal structures, or it can be personal, involving individual attitudes and behaviors.
Forms of Ableism:
Personal Ableism: This includes individual acts of discrimination, like name-calling, or refusing accommodations.
Systemic Ableism: This involves discriminatory practices embedded in institutions, such as inaccessible buildings or lack of access to education or healthcare.
Benevolent Ableism: This involves well-intentioned actions that can still be harmful, like infantilizing or patronizing people with disabilities.
Hostile Ableism: This involves overt hostility towards people with disabilities or their characteristics.
Internalized Ableism: This occurs when individuals with disabilities internalize negative views about disability and discriminate against themselves or others.
Language:
Ableist language is a common way that ableism is expressed, using words and phrases that demean or stereotype people with disabilities.
Examples of Ableist Practices:
Lack of Accessibility: Buildings without ramps, elevators, or accessible restrooms.
Inaccessible Websites: Websites that are not designed to be used by people with disabilities.
Stereotypes and Assumptions: Believing that all people with disabilities are the same or that they are incapable of certain tasks.
Exclusion from Decision-Making: Not including people with disabilities in conversations or decisions that affect them.
Microaggressions: Subtle, often unintentional, expressions of prejudice.
Consequences of Ableism:
Social Isolation:
People with disabilities may experience social isolation and exclusion.
Reduced Opportunities:
Ableism can limit access to education, employment, and other opportunities.
Negative Self-Esteem:
Internalized ableism can lead to low self-esteem and a negative self-image.
Mental Health Issues:
Ableism can contribute to mental health problems for people with disabilities.
Fighting Ableism:
Educate Yourself: Learn about ableism and its impact.
Challenge Ableist Language: Avoid using ableist language and actively call it out.
Promote Accessibility: Advocate for accessible environments and services.
Listen to and Amplify Disabled Voices: Center the experiences and perspectives of people with disabilities.
Be an Ally: Support and advocate for disability rights and inclusion.
I've been a little stuck on the things that didn't work out. I'm trying to focus on the things that do work as well as the new things I can do that I didn't do before. Hopefully, that's enough. Sometimes the alternative to "if life gives you lemons, make lemonade" is "if life gives you unhappy endings, write new ones"
Dear Angry Mental Patient
Dear Angry Mental Patient,
I'm glad you and the others are getting along better. How's the old body doing? The head have enough space for the 8 of you? When you sneeze, does someone come out? Are the sinuses ventilating well, or is it getting hot in there? If Jess takes her clothes off, is it sexy or is she truly invisible? So many questions! I have such a curious mind. I sent in the pills you ordered, just eat them slowly.
On brighter news, I talked to Elle and she got your messages. She talked to the others like you asked. There was a bit of resentment, but they understand. I hope you don't take it too hard. Spravato is new, the looking up thing happened a long time ago. She'll be ok. The staff can't wait to see you again. They'll even throw in a pair of free scrubs and an honorary name tag (That doesn't unlock the doors. Nice try.) Oh, and Peytlin got the soccer balls. I'll say hi to Arson for you.
Coffee
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