Dissociation

 Sometimes When I'm very dissociative I start laughing and crying at the same time. It reminds me of that purple heart guy. Sometimes When things build up you just go in different directions at the same time. Like that joker character. Wierd type of angry sad overwhelmed

Invisible friend

I've met many people who have heard voices. There was this one guy on CL. He had a female hallucination that he was friends with. I don't remember his name or the hallucinations name. But it was interesting listening to him talk about thier relationship. It seemed strange at the time. But I was heavily medicated. Now I have several. I don't consider them friends. They're parts of me.

2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake

Can you help me unravel my latest mistake

I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season.

Yeah we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to criticize

Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track

We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,

No one can find the rewind button girl

So just cradle your head in your hands.

And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss

Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist

Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year

Here in town you can tell he's been down for while

But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles

Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track

We're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,

No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands

And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made

You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song

If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud

And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track

We're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,

No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand...yeah breath

Just breathe, ohho breathe

So sometimes I hear voices... one sounds like a sort of cyborg...

One sounds like an angry old man

One sounds more like a young woman

One sounds like an adult woman

One sounds like a kid

One doesnt have a particular sound

One sounds more like the me I've know most my life

And the last sounds like a young man

They have songs too...