Healing

    Whatever your conclusions, I think it's obvious that the hospital missed the boat this time around. Maybe we can call it even. If the ER had just been honest with me... next time, Bon Secours. Give them a break. Hopefully, I'm in the healing phase.

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One of my all time favorite songs.

Why Support DarknessUntilDawn?

     This site costs time and money to maintain. Furthermore, it is the project of a disabled person trying to make a living. Just by reading this site, you can support that effort, support upstate healthcare, support my writing, and support my health and wellbeing. 

    This site is not meant to be the perfect cheerleader. Just as the hospital was hard on me, I have to be hard on them at times. Life is not perfect. It is not pretty. By making readers aware of the REALISTIC picture of upstate health, we can improve it. We can improve conditions and health, we can promote resources, but don't expect me to fluff it up. That wouldn't be fair to anyone. The hospital system is a big organization, they can take criticism, they cannot abide silence. Silence perpetuates dysfunction. 

    Please continue to visit this site, think of it what you will, and it will display a minimum of ads to cover costs of operation and hopefully offset my living costs, because currently I'm in the hole. I do not own my home, car, or live with financial security. I do not live above the poverty line. That is why I am depending on people to visit this site and read. I'm not even asking for contributions, just keep reading. I'll try to keep it interesting. 

The highway

    Working on anger is work. Shutting down is surrender. Agreement is not always ideal. We get so used to yes men that we forget what healthy debate is like. I grew up with people that brooked no dissent. Thier way or the highway. Now I have anger issues, disability, helplessness, shutting down, regret... sometimes my way or the highway means that its time to leave. 

    People that are never satisfied, with very high or moving standards, are not people to keep in your life. I've known more then a few.