What I come back to again and again...

I need to communicate more effectively. I need to be direct and decisive with communication. That's why I need to avoid the same people. Because I'm not communicating well. I need to do it better the first time. Because this has really gotten away from me. I'm not being clear. I'm not being firm. And its been that way for a very long time. This indirect communication is so dysfunctional. It's destroying what little remains of my so called life. I can't keep doing this.