Somehow I have failed again. I didn't see this coming. I saw the signs, but he had promised, time after time, that we would figure it out together, that he would be there when I needed him. Then he disappeared, and I still wanted to believe, even after all the hard words, the disdain and accusations, the lies, the unethical conduct, the experiments, the deflection of blame, the self glorification...
We tried. You know we did. We gave heart and soul to that man. He said he was like our father and we were like his son. Then he decided to let us die.
I was telling you. You didn't listen. you were letting him hurt us, gaslight us, try to destroy us. Cover up his tracks. The unreturned calls? The pharmacy in the dark? the team caught off guard? The nurse disappearing, he stopped talking to us like a doctor. He talked like a lawyer, and used that sugary, pretend reasonable tone with others, to gaslight them too, and some still don't see it.
You're going to make everyone upset. Stop talking. We just got him sleeping better.
We have to get help. We're vulnerable. We go to the wrong person and they'll just say we're crazy. Crazier then actual dangerous people. And keep Shadow away from the doors. He's too upset. Like a caged animal almost. It's so hard to talk to him.
Our fire has never failed us. The Night will not find us there, it only sees in shadows.
Let's review the list. Internist, PA, Sleep Center, infusion center,
Don't forget the silent ones. They speak truth, if allowed.
All this thinking makes me thirsty.
Now you done it. He's back.
Spidey no like noise. Makes me webby.
Desperately thirsty.
Go be thirsty somewhere else.You're not helping. Welcome to my life. Less talking, more doing.
Whispering Winds