Well, can't get stuck on the past. You can only move forward. Adjust. Try to forget. Walk the narrow path. Someday I will die. What will they say when they bury me? Will they lie then too? Will there be any truth left by the end? Or will my life be the never-ending bullshit bipolar train, complete with supporting cast and extras? Finding out one day at a time.

I need to be much more careful. Close more doors. I dont have the energy or endurance anymore.