Projection

I don’t know you
You’re not my friend
Nor family, nor lover
To me you’re nothing at all.

Yet I open my world to you.
You listen to my secrets.
They play in the shadows of your mind
And I wonder what you’re not telling me

You seem to exist in another dimension
In a place I simply cannot go
Yet I struggle to reach you nonetheless
never understanding why I try.

Sometimes I want to tear you down,
To belittle you and say hard truths
To break your façade and draw your tears
In a clumsy attempt to make you real.

You’ve done to me not a single crime
but I easily pretend you’ve done everything.
I try to believe that hurting you is justice
Yet I am powerless to pursue such righteousness

I don’t want to feel anything when I look at you.
I pursue complete apathy, though I fail every time.
You’re not a part of my life so why are you in it?
The simple truth is that you aren’t.

I don’t deny that the adversary lies within me
I know that you are more than a reflection
I can warp my concept of you minute by minute
Yet regardless, you remain the same.

Even as I seek you, I try to escape you
It’s a twisted sort of dream
What will you be when our time is done?
As now, a figment of my imagination.

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