Counseling costs money, yes, and it brings problems out into the open for people to see. I can't just gloss over my problems though. I'm a real person, and I need people to see that. Pride is a dangerous thing. Refusing to accept help is a dangerous thing. I do fear people knowing all of me. But rather than hide my problems and walk around with them, I want to deal with them. 

    I like what I'm learning about lifestyle. My blood sugar is lower, and I have more realistic view of medication. I'm spending less, and I'm more careful about spending. I'm taking some risks. I'm definitely making mistakes. 

    I can't be nice all the time; it leads to problems like anger issues. I've not learned the art of dealing bad news as well as I thought. My self-image was rigid and unrealistic. I'm not sure how others see me, other than inconsistent. 

    It's difficult being alone. But it's dangerous to be in unhealthy relationships. I need to improve my emotional regulation and communication before it truly is too late. I need to do that even if it hurts people's feelings.