Healthy Masculinity

     Healthy masculinity is only possible when people are actually listening, when they're not engaging in bullshit rumors and toxicity. Healthy masculinity involves asking for what you need and being strong but not silent. 

    But when people aren't listening and simply slinging lies and being inappropriate, any smart man does the walk away thing. And that's what I did at MIP. I walked away. I found people who were listening at the outpatient providers. The very people who were being slandered and lied about, those are the people who are helping me. Yeah they also prescribed Spravato, which landed me in the ER in the first place. But we live and learn. But anytime my skin is cold and clammy, My heart is going nuts, and I feel like I'm dying, I'm going to call 911, I'm going to an ER, and maybe I won't mention Elle's name, and maybe they'll actually be helpful. But just in case, I'll pick a different hospital.