Sugar Coating

    I can't be nice all the time. It's not possible. Thats why some people shouldn't be around me. Because I can be nice as pie but that can result in enabling abuse or unhealthy behaviors. It can result in bad communication. 

    Now, was it right or safe for a mental health worker at mip to mention the last name of a nurse in the presence of a patient? No. Yeah, I liked Elle. But the worker didn't have to mention her last name when I DIDNT EVEN ASK. Now, I didn't have to look her up. I didn't have to contact her. So, we all make mistakes. 

    I need to focus on getting a job. I need to focus on my writing. I cannot be involved in family dysfunction or bullshit referrals to this center or that center. I just can't. I'm trying to contain my own dysfunction and work it out in time with the outpatient office. Hospitals can be pressure cookers. They're not always an ideal place for problem solving. And I have too much history with the hospitals. 

    I'm doing the writing. I'm working on the painting. I'm taking my meds. I'm watching my expenses. I'm looking for work. I'm looking forward to this being over. It's past time to move on. The hospitals have other people to help.